Maybe

I wonder what he thought of me
I know what I thought of him
I thought he would be the end to my lonely days
I thought he would be the perfect way to bring in the New Year
I thought he had a nice smile and in my dreams he would drive me wild
I thought he could help ease the pain
I thought he would be here to stay
I prayed to feel butterflies again,
But now I see I had forgotten how it feels when they end
Now my head is filled with maybes
Maybe he didn’t like me
Maybe he didn’t get my jokes
Maybe I offended him
Maybe I wasn’t good enough
Maybe God saved me
Maybe there was something wrong with him
Maybe there is something wrong with me
Maybe I am not ready
Maybe he isn’t either
Maybe I should stop saying maybe
Because I know God has my back forever

2 Comments

  1. Foxarocious November 23, 2017 at 6:19 am

    This hit me at my core…the push and pull of these intoxicating emotions can drive me wild sometimes…
    I’m glad you find peace in Eternity: which is a great example of unconditional love.

    1. camillew855 November 23, 2017 at 6:43 am

      Wow thanks Jonathan! These relationships can really be something else lol. I’m glad you and other people can relate to it and that it’s not just me lol.

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